Dear, sweet Liam.
I am going to tell you something you may not want to hear, but here it is anyway;
Your life is so wide open, it is going to be what you make it. What do you want to do? To be? Sit down and make a list. What do you want your life to look like in five years? What kind of career path would you like to pursue? What is the ultimate goal of your career path, to inspire, to create, to invent, to bring hope or healing to people? Be as specific as possible.
What would you like in a mate? Make a list. Of inner qualities....lol....Is she smart, funny, what are her spiritual beliefs? What are her hobbies, her interests, her goals and dreams?
Making these lists is a way of setting your intent, Liam. It works, so be careful. Remember, in the Book of Job he says, "The thing I feared I drew unto myself." So make your list fearlessly, dream big ~ If you had enough money, enough time and enough of anything else you might need, what would you do?
One word of caution, something I did see while pondering your path....Do not let any human being ever become your God. You will have many mentors in your life and they will appear as you need them. Be very careful to remember that they are just people, just as yourself. Just because someone might be extremely talented or gifted in their calling, does not make them any better than you, honey, you have the same gifts inside of you, the same abilities and the same power.
There are people out there who would exploit your sweet and sensitive nature to gratify their own egos ~ There are people who collect followers to themselves. Be careful of this Liam. You already have all the answers inside of you, mentors only help us realize this, they help us draw out those answers ~ but our biggest mentor is the Holy Spirit.
You will be able to recognize the true from the false like this; The true mentor will always point you to God and the spark of Divinity within you, the false will always point you to themselves and their own gift. The true mentor will celebrate YOU, encourage YOU and desire for YOU to shine, the false will desire you to celebrate THEM, demand your encouragement, and more often than not, charge you for the privilege. lol. Just be careful, Liam.
There is a verse in James, I think that says, "You have no need for any man to teach you, for the Holy Spirit Himself will lead you and guide you into all truth." No matter what anyone tells you, always consult with Spirit, Liam, that goes for everything ~ even what I'm telling you now. In the scriptures, in a few passages ~ the original Greek word for the Holy Spirit is translated as "Paraclete." It means, "One who comes along side, to comfort, console, to advise and to guide."
I would remind you that Spirit is FREE, Liam....don't ever pay someone to provide you with Spirit.
One more thing....There are some friends around you that share your interest in spiritual matters, they are seeking quietly, just as you are. Ask God to show you who these friends are. I see at least one young lady....
And lastly....beware of over-indulging yourself in the area of alcohol. This is an area in which you personally have to be very, very careful. While it might be fun for a moment, or you might find welcome relief in the numbness of it, it will derail you from your path, at least temporarily. It is best just to leave it alone.....