I just had the most crazy experience of my life.
Every week or so, my mom, sister and me meet up to read tarot cards. Nothing special, we usually just have fun with it. My mom and sister are the psychic ones anyway, I just go along because I'm interested.
Anyway, we were reading the cards, and they were all really random. Then, a 'spirit' of someone close to my sister came, and gave her a message. This took around half an hour. We were abut to finish up, when this other ghost came along, and it was some random 15 year old girl who none of us knew.
She was... really excited, because we knew she was there. She was going around the three of us, prodding us and stuff, you know, the usual. Then it got wierd. me and my sister both went REALLY stiff, as in, we couldn't move. Then my hand started to move on its own. It wasn't really moving at first, just twitching, but then it got worse, and my legs started to move. infact, my sister had to hold my hands down at one point. It took us around another half an hour just to get it to stop.
Allthough it was exciting, I feel weak. not weak physically, more, weak minded. Like, I let someone take control of me, while my sister and mom were fine. I feel like I let them down, you know?
so yeah, interesting night overall, allthough they didn't have time to read my cards.
Me and my mom have just had a mini-argument about the whole thing. And it eventually came to "you have to be stronger." I just feel untrusted you know? like, I don't feel like they want me there, because I'm 'inexperienced' and not psychic. I didn't know what was going on, so I went with it, because the best way to learn how to deal with something is to experience it, right?
I know I'm weak with this stuff, and this proves it. But how can I get any better if I just get looked down upon when I make mistakes? Maybe I'm just being childish. Who knows.